Recently I bought 10 dollars worth of mini Reese’s for the candy jar at work.
You know, the kind with little M&M type things at the bottom so when you sink your teeth into the delicious, peanut butter-chocolate goodness, there’s a delicious little crunch at the end.
Makes my heart go pitter patter.
I bought them from bulk barn so everyone could enjoying them, but the candy jar is on my desk. And what does that mean? I’ve eaten all but five of the peanut butter cups.
These glorious chocolatey peanut-butter devils demonstrate the overall tone of my eating habits, which currently are: I want. I eat. I mean, I’m eating these suckers right now.
So what have these sweet, delicious, creamy gifts of destruction taught me about myself?
1. I’m buying sugary foods that I can’t stop myself from eating
In other words; if I like it and I’m feeling munchy, I’m gonna eat it.
This is especially a problem for me because I eat when I’m bored. I don’t have to be hungry. In fact, emotional eating makes up a ton of the bad food choices I make.
I’ll be sitting at work and order myself a starbucks mango dragon fruit refresher (which are delicious, and I’m more than a little addicted) when I have my bottle of water right here next to me.
Here’s the problems doing something like that creates for me: I’m spending money I don’t have to, I’m consuming more sugar just because I’m bored, I’m feeding my bad habit, and I’m creating more waste than I have to.
2. I can’t control myself when I’m hungry
I am the worst at doing what’s right for me when I’m hungry. At that point, it’s too late. I’m not going to spend forty-five minutes making myself a well thought out, balanced meal when I’m already hangry. I’m going to reach for the cookies, and the chips, and whatever other processed, pre-packaged foods I can get my grubby little hands on.
Planning my meals shouldn’t be left to the last minute when I’m already hungry, anyways. If you were to ask me at any point this week what I was planning on have for supper, you would receive a reflex-like shrug, accompanied by the very helpful “Idunno”.
3. When people ask me if I want to go out and eat, I’m always down
How did the candies teach you that? Well, my coworkers kept asking me to buy better candies for the bowl. I did myself a favor and kept forgetting for a couple months, until I found myself conveniently located at my local Bulk Barn.
I thought “I’ll pick up a bag of these, they’ll all be happy to get something good!” Let me tell you, a total of two people got to discover that we even had better candies because I kept eating them. They were gone within two days.
I eat out a ton. Thanks to restaurants like Chopped Leaf and Freshii (which I actually worked at for a while, freshii represeeeeent) I feel like I’m not making so many bad decisions as before, but I am unable to resist A&W’s Beyond Meat Burger. If someone asks me if were going to [insert generic restaurant name with maybe two vegetarian options here] I’m always down to go.
My boyfriend and I have gotten better at choosing healthier restaurants (i.e. Chopped Leaf and Freshii) when we do go out, and we’re working on cooking for ourselves more and more.
Food delivery services are also becoming the bane of my existence. Takeout is getting to a new level, and the child in me who has no idea how to take care of herself is living for it.
What do I do when I don’t prepare myself a lunch? I’ll shrug it off and order myself whatever the heck I want on SkipTheDishes.
Does it cost so much extra for delivery? Yup.
Does the food itself cost more because apps are marking up prices to make more profit? Oh yeah.
So am I losing even more money while also sitting here, unmoving, as I wait for food to arrive that I will do nothing to work off? You betcha.
Do you see my problem here?
So what am I going to do to help myself?
Since emotional eating could be considered a bad habit, I have to start breaking the chain. This week it’s already getting easier to say to myself “Regan, you already have water right next to you. It’s actually right there.”
Making the decision to buy myself healthier snacks to have on hand for when I’m munching is also something I can do. Twenty chocolate kisses can do some damage, but twenty snap peas are nothing. Heck, I could have one hundred snap peas. They still wouldn’t do me nearly as dirty as the chocolate kisses would.
Using alternatives to distract myself like writing, drawing, reading, and especially blogging give my mind something to work on, so I can keep myself from bored eating like I love to.
The solution to my second and third problems are much the same; MEAL PLANNING.
I am terrible at meal planning. Planning and preparing my meals on sunday has been on my to-do list for months, and I know that it would make my life so much easier.
I’m never that keen on sacrificing one of my days off to work, but I’ve never tried it, either.
Having a day that I put some music on and chop all my vegetables for the week might be kinds nice, and would definitely be more productive than what I do with my sundays now. Planning ahead makes me much more likely to make good choices for myself.
Not having to make hangry decisions means I can choose foods to properly fuel my body to do all the amazing things it does.
Even though I felt like a horrible little gremlin after eating twenty peanut butter cups, they’ve really solidified for me what I do and don’t want to do to my body.
I believe that if you’re being conscious about your health and doing the best you can for yourself, any size is healthy and beautiful.
Although I know I’m not actually fat, I make lots of decisions that make me go “Oh, that’s not good for my body. I’m not taking care of it like I should.”
Realizing that makes me feel gross. I only have one body, of course I want to do the best I can for it. Realizations like this, then, need to happen.
Because I’m the only me I’ve got, and I want the best for me.
Thanks for reading! I’d love to hear your solutions for problems you have when trying to be the healthiest you can be.
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